one DAPSILOG please!!!

ok so its christmas day, guess i need to greet everyone huh...ok yeah i am working during holidays, so what the heck? well i am paid double today as i simply sit here look at my pc and play games just to wait till my time ends. thats how boring my christmas day this year. i am actually looking forward for something, but anyways i just dont want my frustrations be messed up with christmas day.

since its yuletide season i received texts ppl greeting me forwarded messages, (i do the same thing) as well as mga taong ngayon lang nagparamdam. natuwa ako sa iba, cuz i miss my old friends and i might see them as the new year begins. but for other old acquaintances, na parang tulad pa rin sila ng dati, just no bearing for me. ok my bad for saying that, what i am just saying is that no matter how i try we just cant connect as we were living now in different priorities, different interests. dont worry im not being bad on dealing with them, un nga lang minsan diko lang ma gets. i had this old girlie friend, after almost a year na walang paramdaman, i received a text message saying this:

1 message received. Hi musta na, merry xmas, namimiss mo ba ako? punta ko dyan papakilala kita sa asawa ko.

honestly after reading it, i thought for awhile na wrong send, or nagtaka ako kung may pinagkakautangan ba ako sa kanya or kung gusto nya lang mamasko at higit sa lahat...baket ko kelangan ma meet ang asawa nya??? alryt my tantrums starts rising again, pero, pero, pero diko talaga ma gets. its like, ok so ure married, good for u, merry xmas din, pero kelangan bang ibandera saken ang asawa mo? ni di ko nga alam anong nangyari sa yo sa buong taon then ull text me as if alam ko nangyari sa lovestory nyo. nalabuan lang ako sa segue nya from "missing" till "pakilala sa asawa." whatever.

alright, so lets pause from that. i actually downloaded the pics out of my phone, its been like weeks now when im trying to get hold of the pics with me blissy and sesh. but when i had it already, im asking myself what will i do with these again? hehe kidding. oh yeah naalala ko na, popost ko sa eb gallery. (dun ko nga ba nalagay?)

ill be on leave for work tomorrow and too bad sesh, i had the narnia dvd movie and kingkong, hehe. told u ill be the first one to watch it over u and anne. (chuckles) actually gusto ko lang mang inggit sa inyo, but i might lend that to u :P

so just before i finally saved this draft entry for today, i wanna greet everyone a Merry Christmas! lets not just celebrate this day, and be hooked into gifts, or eat too much food, but lets also remember why this day is being remembered. guess its His day, lets all try to be good, that includes me.

MP3 song of the day: be like that by 3 doors down

ok so its 24th of december, but for me its an ordinary day. so for today nothing's really new except for the things i had during my rest days. i am currently reading the book, The Gospel Code by Ben Witherington III, as this tackles stuff mentioned in the Da vinci code. and oh yeah, of course my garfield pillow right down there.

so as i am at work, oh yeah working during holidays huh...i had this gluttonous thingy wherein i crave for something sweet. so i had the pizza huts mango dessert. actually its like the traditional "leche flan" being served during new year. with its white color coated with mango nectar.

speaking of food indulgence, my mom is actually thinking what food to prepare for xmas. its just a week that we had small party at home and been eating and boozing a lot. (oh yes i am telling u) siguro nagsawa na ako sa mga pagkain. my alter ego objects, hehhe. well maybe i am, a little bit. though its very traditional for filipinos to prepare something for visitors to come, im having these thoughts why is there a need to prepare and eat food much than the usual during holidays?? ohh so what am i blabbing at? im eating them anyways.

kung makakita ka ng ganyang ad sa newspaper, would you apply for the position? im sure sa dami ng pinoy bloggers sasakit ang ulo ng taong mag iinterview sa mga aspiring applicants. pero what if ganto ang scenario, lets say u see an ad, looking for a manager, and u think u passed all the qualification, would it be ok if the interviewer will assess u depending on what is inside ur blogsite?

the big question mark is what is ur blog all about? why are u publishing ur unfiltered ideas wherein everyone can have access to it? shud in any case that the scenario would ask you to let ppl like ur boss, ur parents, or ppl u look up to will pass by ur blog, have u ever ask urself what would be their reaction after reading a blogsite like mine? is it necessary for them to assess me by simply reading my grrr, urgh, shit, bitch written in ur page?

it is indeed true that blog entries have been an outlet from the stress, wonderings, funny experience that we encounter everyday. as for me, having a spontaneous entry will slowly reveal who is the real person behind codenames, behind unclear pics, unaltered words. you may think that no one will see ur blog, on some occasion u cud be right, but it would be impossible that no one in entire time will not see ur blogsite.

the kick is, how can this one be a personal blog, if u will limit urself to what other ppl might think about ur blogsite? hence free-spiritedness will never be achieved if we are inline in this thinking.

Author: Frank Mihalic, SVD
From: The Millennium Stories

This story is about a beautiful, expensively dressed lady who complained to her psychiatrist that she felt that her whole life was empty; it had no meaning.

So the counsellor called over the old lady who cleaned the office floors, and then said to the rich lady, "I'm going to ask Mary here to tell you how she found happiness. All I want you to do is listen."

So the old lady put down her broom and sat on a chair and told her story: "Well, my husband died of malaria and three months later my only son was killed by a car. I had nobody... I had nothing left. I could'nt sleep; I couldn't eat; I never smiled at anyone, I even thought of taking my own life. Then one evening a little kitten followed me home from work. Somehow I felt sorry for that kitten. It was cold outside, so I decided to let the kitten in. I got it some milk, and it licked the plate clean. Then it purred and rubbed against my leg, and for the first time in months, I smiled. Then I stopped to think; if helping a little kitten could make me smile, maybe doing something for people could make me happy. So the next day I baked some biscuits and took them to a neighbour who was sick in bed. Every day I tried to do something nice for someone. It made me so happy to see them happy. Today, I don't know of anybody who sleeps and eats better than I do. I've found happiness, by giving it to others."

When she heard that, the rich lady cried. She had everything that money could buy, but she had lost the things which money cannot buy.

You'll be receiving a message ud never have expected. kaya prepared to be surprised. its up to you to take it seriously or not.

this was the message i received for my everyday "name meaning." it is somehow prophetic. i received a criticism from someone unknown as he/she preferred not to reveal the identity after saying such stuff. something that would make me think..somehow. well what can i say, some ppl will love me and hate me for being me, but should i be impinged by that? guess, not at all.

as for me people are tested not by the things that they have control over, but by the things beyond their control. in that maneuver, a critisism whether constructive or not is a point given to the person who started to notice "something" on me. maybe for him, theres something to notice, something worth telling to let me know how i am doing...so do i care? nope. seriously, but why am i writing this blog entry if ull ask me. its becuz its only now that i realize that its how we react on the things that is totally beyond our control that truly defines us. emotions are definitely the core of it and character didnt let me be swept away.

so as with u...

i receive an email from an agent who is antagonized by our presence. (second level support) thus his rationale on the works of his immediate officers --> us, is obviously inconsiderable.

I would like to address the lack of L2 support from 1:00 am - 1:15 am, even though that its just 15 minutes, L2 should be available during support hours. And please, if your having your own L2 meeting, keep in mind its still support hours so you have to be available and visible. Keep your meeting within the floor. No need to reply, explanation not needed.

im not sure if ill laugh after receiving that email, but moreover it drives me to reply as fast as i can. i dont want the whole team having the thoughts that we are just like that, being eaten by a gagged up scuzzy monster. we know what exactly happen that time. his claim is that we are not visible during support hours, but the truth is he even approached us and ask a "no sweat" question. so why his yackety-yak? i dont know where it came from but i heard that this guy wanted us out in the position. his action drove us into a conclusion that we have to answer it for us to raise our flags messed by this moronic ogre.

.....and that's the other side of the story.

DISCLAIMER: shud u encounter any person similar to the one i describe above, kindly bring him to the nearest police station or mental hospital.

friday. i was on my way to the mall, ng may isang lalakeng nakasabay ko sa escalator bigla na lang nagtanong kung san ako nagwoword. syempre natakot ako sa kanya, not cuz of his face (but quite) but becuz of his way of asking me. so i dont say anything to him, rather sumenyas lang ako, tipong "uhm sa tabi tabi lang" if ill put it into words. when we reach the 2nd floor, nagtataka ako why paikot ikot lang sya sa isang area, it is as if may inaantay sya. thats when i started to think na baka he is stalking me, so what i did is pinasukan ko lahat ng stores in gateway, khit halatang meron akong pinagtataguan. then bumaba ako sa kabilang escalator khit halos dulo na yun. its quite scary kase alam naman naten na sa panahong ito, khit hindi mayaman hinoholdap, nirerape at kung ano ano pang kalokohan ang pwedeng mangyari. wanko.

saturday. we went to the housewarming (sabe ni sesh homecoming daw ehhe) of raia and company, well wala namang kameng inaasahan ibang taong pupunta dun kundi kame kame rin lang. but its good to see them again. konting kainan lang and sila nag inuman. yup sila lang, kase mahirap ng mag inom ng ganung time.

sunday. umiral na naman ang pagiging cranky ko for this day. yeah u know that already. its basically because of a decision na ginawa nya. and yes i dont like it, but i have no choice as i am forced to understand it. sana nga maintindihan ko in the real sense of grasping the thoughts. later in the afternoon, we were about to meet ppl from muks, kaso kame kame rin nila blissy ang nagkikita due to some miscommunication. ewan ko ba kung baket parang uso ang miscommunication para sa araw na to. anyways, eto ung pic na nangyari khapon as we went to dencios, tapos roam around gateway area lang. in the pic below, its me and blissy. ung ibang pics, baka bukas ko na lang ipost here.

im on my way earlier to the office, riding the fx taxi when we passed by a group of drunk men. (or probably drugged) just before i see a clear sight of their faces, i noticed in a dark area along marcos highway a not-so-tall guy that is a little shaky and a bit tensed by the presence of the 3 men. here came a thought that maybe those were "holdappers." when the fx driver stopped on those men, a suspicious looking drunkard come closely to the window asking "cubao?" even if its pretty obvious that the actual tag in front of the fx says that it is "cubao aurora." on that very minute, i just told the driver not to let them in, sabe ko nga "manong wag na lang ho" the driver listened to me as we drove away from those men. i myself was surprised that for the very first time, i get dreadful of my safety. as well as the safety of the ppl inside the fx including the driver. for whatever reason, kinabahan ako when i saw those men na maybe they are harassing the poor guy. but my quick thoughts beseech me to request that from the driver. and good lord, im safe on my way to work. do i really value life or does life value me?

i werent able to log in at the mukamo forum as it was temporarily down. thats why i get a chance to get kulitan on msn with the SB chatters. dj ely made this one (thanks to u bro.) and i even requested for sum1 else. hehe.

im a little sapped at the mid of the shift as i was asked by my boss to do some reports while i handle 5 escalations all at the same time. alright im not exasperated because that is in accordance to my job description. but the thought that im all alone added poundage to it. but still, i was able to finish everything ;) so thats about for my weekend. my shift now is almost over and i will just tell u bout the gimmicks ill be into this weekend.

magkakaroon daw kame ng exchange gift, since christmas is in the air. mas magiging madali ito compared sa traditional way of monito monita when we are in high school. this time magkakaroon ng wish list kung saan iisip ang bawat isa sa amen kung ano gusto nyang matanggap na regalo. oh diba bongga, dika na madidisappoint sa matatanggap mo kase un din ung nilist mo. (in fairness nagustuhan ko naman ung mga nakaraang regalo saken during exchange gifts hehe) kaso ang siste, ako ang nahihirapang umiisip ng bagay na gusto kong matanggap sa halagang P500. wala akong maisip kase eh. wala akong maisip na gusto kong ipabili sa amount na yun, wala...if over limang daan, then siguro ibang usapan na un. hehehe.

for the past weeks, ive been hooked with online group chatting or shoutbox. masaya kaseng mangulit ng tao and to get to know them. meron pa nga na meet ko and were somewhat in the same situation sa kung anoman yun hehe :p and its good to relate to ppl khit na saang part pa sila ng mundo. naks ang drama na. pero nakakaaliw lang talaga. dati kase nakikita ko yung shoutbox pero deadma mode lang, ngayon nakakaexcite na kase may mga kilala na ko dun khit papano.

kanina naman while gusto kong gisingin ang sarili ko sa nakakaantok na trabaho, i decided to visit the sbarro site, at ayun natakam ako sa baked ziti and cheesecake nila. umiiral na naman ang saket kong "patay gutom" syndrome. minsan pag gusto kong mag fud trip, i imagine my stomach as a big storage of fud yug tipong kaen lang ng kaen then saka na ko magwoworry sa mga fats na tutubo sa katawan ko. and yeah nagugulat at nagtataka pa ko ng lagay na yun.