one DAPSILOG please!!!

'twas one lonely night, i just got off from shower, wearing my fave pink coral chemise with lace, get pulses being in bed. eyes are tired but body is pretty awake. im lying in bed feeling the nitty sheets and hugging the pillow. about to close my eyes, when i heard my phone ringing. slowly pick up the phone and say hello, i heard ur voice..buzzing saying something. i cant hear all the words u say except for this phrase: "want u tonight". then line cut. im thinking if its really u or im just dreaming to hear that low-voice again. wanting to hear the gasp of ur breath, which is very natural of u.

almost half an hour of sleeping when i heard u enter my room. touching my hips down to my legs. without saying anything, i turn at u, put away the pillow ive been hugging all this time, and inviting u to get really close at me. u slowly take off ur shirt, makes me quiver for a minute, unzipping ur pants as if wanting my fingers to put inside it , making me more intense. felt thirsty. the feeling that i get to see ur body, reflected by the moonlight, is more than enuf for me to feel the urge of this longingness. i want u too tonight.

the irresistible breath when our lips met added something to my imagination. the fact that ive been dreaming of this defining moment that ur body will meet mine excites both of us. i feel electrified when u began kissing my neck going down to my breasts, and ohh ure sucking the nipples. and now i cant help but moan..ohh. ive always wanted ur tongue to explore this bosom, how his little bites make me go wilder. i can feel how passionate he is through his breath while his kissing my twin peaks. i press his face towards mine as if permitting him to do whatever he can, whatever that pleases him.

to my revenge my hands started moving, teasing him by caressing his hair, the shoulders and below his armpit. finding where is his bestial zones. his firm hands as if looking for something, touching my abdomen, going down below while his busy kissing my body...gently removing my undy, puts a tickling sensation ive never felt before. he is now looking at my body, invited me to change to sitting position with me on his lap. i felt the vibration of his body when my hips move closer to him. i felt the presence of virility. i cant help but touch it, and i know he'll like it. and so i did, i caress it starting at the shaft towards the head, touching every part of his genital. as i do it over and over, he asked me not to hold it anymore, instead enter into the cave of my womanhood. i felt somethin inside me wants it, the muscles are beating so fast that i want him to do it sensuously.

ohh argghh yeahhh...there yeah...love it...arghhh...i know im mindless at that climactic time, cant think of anything but him alone..how good he mastered pleasing me...arghh ohhh......ahhhyyyyy!!!!!!!!

Indayyyyyyyy! tanghali ka na namang gumising, diba sabe ko sayo bumangon ka ng maaga dahil aalis kame ngayon. di ka pa nakakaluto, pambihira naman oh. ano ka ba?!?

Inday: tsuri ma'am, napuyat po ako kagabe. (pucha naman, panaginip lang pala)

graphology - the study of handwriting analysis - an effective and reliable indicator of personality and behaviour. ni minsan ba naisip mo kung baket walang dalawang tao ang magkapareho ng pagsulat. pwedeng hawig khit kopyahin pa ung sulat mo, but the manner u write it, kung nakapa slant ba, big letters ba or even kung madiin kang magsulat...lahat pala yun ay may kahulugan kung graphology ang pag uusapan. biruin mo un, meron palang ganun.

The size of a letter is indicative of the writers self reliance.
A letter may extend in four directions, up, down, right or left.
A letter may also be tall and wide.
Tall capitals are people who tower above the rest.
Tall initials come from impressive people.
Small capitals are people who are modest in nature.
They concentrate on facts, not ideas.
Wide letters are extroverted people.
Narrow letters come from loners.

yan ay ilan lang sa halimbawa na kung paano nila iinterpret ang sulat ng tao. they even called handwriting as "brainwriting." on the other hand, naiisip kong if we are how we write dahil kontrolado ng brain ang ateng kamay which correlates to our personality, pano naman ung paglalakad, ung pagpikit or even pagtae at kung ano ano pang activities..meron din bang kahulugan nun that will describe how one person behaves?

nung bata tayo, hindi tayo marunong magsulat. oo tagilid at parang kinalahig ng manok ang sulat ko, pero nabago un sa tagal ng panahon. kung ang sulat ng tao ay nagbabago, masasabe ba nateng nagbabago din ang personality ng tao? eh pano if lahat ng font kaya mong gayahin, of any size with slant and all..does it mean na multiple din ang personality mo? heheh weird. nung una na curious ako, imagine pati sa sulat ko malalaman nila if im introvert or kung emotional at kung ano ano pa. oist aminin mo, na kumuha ka ngayon ng papel at tinitingnan ang sulat mo kung san nag fafall dun sa nakalagay sa taas. asus.

again, im not questioning the validitity of the claims of the graphologists. but like anyone else meron din akong mga tanong if there's even a need to put our attention in believing such pseudoscience like graphology. maaring tama sila, maari din namang haka haka.

basta saken ang importante...marunong akong humawak ng papel at bolpen and im glad that i can even write...with or without the lines.

sosyal: i dont like this crappy shit! how sleazy the ppl are, how poor the product is. and to add a whole bunch of idiots around u. (sabay yosi)

jologs: anak ng pating, totopakin ako sa mga taong nakapaligid saken, ang slow kausap, at ang sopweyr ayaw gumana. tapos mga nakapaligid mga diko ma gets.

duktor: the impact of damage is undetectable, the injury can be accessed by neutrological examination, can lead to cognitive-communication problems, in serious cases, the result can be permanent disability.

driver: kung baket ba naman saksakan ng trapik..tapos kung mamalasin ka pa mahuhuli ka ng pulis, eh di pwedeng walang lagay yun. tapos ung kupal na driver eh masasagi pa ung bumper ng sasakyan mong 96 model..pag dika pa tinamaan ng magaling at P37.00 na naman per litro ang gasolina.

student: ang daming assignments! tapos pag uwi ng bahay ang daming utos, sawang sawa na ako sa sermon!!! tapos di pa ako nirereplyan sa mga texts ko, ayoko na!

singer: you're a god! and i am not. i just wated u to know..and i just wanna let u go.

president: oppositions are destabilizing, the value of peso has not increased last quarter, crime rate is getting worse, policians are backsliding, phone calls are wire-tapped..what else do u want from me, philippines?

different expressions, pre-parehas lang naman ang emosyon. meron talagang bad trip day, mapa anong posisyon mo sa lipunan. tao ka lang na nakakaramdam kaya ilabas mo yan. so go and get up u madah-pakers!

DISCLAIMER: di po ako galit. asar lang, hehhe.

have you seen the commercial of dennis trillo, ung may background music na:

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone

Thinking of you till it hurts

I know you hurt too..zzzzpppppp (saka lalabas ung ad ng napkin)

actually mas marami pa ang exposure ni dennis kesa dun sa babae, knowing na pambabaeng product yun, haha. tsaka now ko lang na figure out na pwede pala ang isang senti song sa commercial ng isang napkin..ahh whatever.

wow, kitams hot papa si dennis, pero bigla akong nasagwaan sa pic na to haha. wala lang, this one is taken from cosmo magz, ang title ng pose? the egg beater. now take it to ur imagination.

nga pala, napansin nyo bang nagkalat ang face ni manny pacquiao sa mga commercials? opo hindi kayo naghahallucinate at lalong hindi kayo na oobsess sa kanya. talga lang lately eh naparami ata ang offers na advertisements sa kanya, kung kaya mayat maya ang labas nya sa tv. wow ang astigg, ang yaman. at one time, biglang dumagsa ang mga products na iniendorse nya. mapagamot, pagkain, medyas at kung ano ano pa. big time na dinaig pa nya ang megastar na dami ng commercial at one period. iba na ang sikat, pwedeng gamitin, este pwedeng kuning maging commercial model. sya na siguro ang boxer na khit magkanda bungi, magktahi tahi ang mukha, marami pa ring commercials. iba ka pacman!

just got off from work, does not feel to work later but i have to...my mind is occupied with so many things. im so damn restless.

i will be closing this blog temporarily, for how long? that im not sure of. all i know is that i cant think of better things today, right this moment. my thoughts are flying, body's aching, emotions fluctuating, self-weeping. how can this thing be so hard for me?

i have always been transparent to everyone who knows me that well. but not now, as i cant see whats inside me. i have hurt special ppl around me. i have failed them so many times, and now i dont know if im still worth their precious time. i wish i can just erase the bad experiences and create a nice future together. i wish i cud just make things that simple for both of us.

time heals all wounds. im running out of time, hoping i can prolong it...without prolonging the agony.

love and pain goes hand in hand, im wishing to overcome this pain, and remain strong as ever...to remember the good times together...to be selfless and positive...to feel loved instead of betrayed.

love and sacrifice, what a great tandem. cannot be equal, one exceeds the other, while the other paves way. one is unconditional, but the other can reach a certain point of boundary. i do not want to reach the limit nor wanted to abuse a great source. so now, let me find my way.

DISCLAIMER: enuf na po ang dramang nasa taas, panibagong bukas na, at kunwari lang na masasara ko ang blogsite na to, ganitong nangangati ang kamay kong mag type. pinilit kong magbusy-busyhan at gawan ng backup ang blogsite na to, kaso tinamad na naman akong gawin. plano ko ring magchange ng web address, change of environment kumbaga. (koneksyon?) ala lang, para maiba. para may something bago. hayy pati ba naman sa blogsite, di ako maka move on? isang malakeng "ohhh kamon, nahttt agenn".

minsan gusto kong ma gets kung papano nasusukat ang iq ng tao. sabe nila that the aim of an IQ test is to measure the intelligence of a child, which supposedly is an indication of the child's potential. but where does the test come from and does it really measure potential? pang bata lang ba talaga to?

IQ stands for intelligence quotient. the conception that it is a score that tells one how “bright” a person is compared to other people, tipong gifted child. ang memory na maaalala ko lang is that si albert einstein daw ay may iq na 140-150 plus. wow! oh eh ano naman, hehe.

when i was 16, took the entrance examination sa isang unibersidad, may nakalagay dung iq score of 119. syempre i dont mind considering the scores, besides di rin naman ako pumasok sa skul na un. so right now nacurious ako if tumataas ba talaga ang iq ng tao. if tumataas dapat marami ng matured ppl ang matalas ang isipan..that is kung tumataas nga ang iq nila. or does iq results reflects how intelligent you are? hmm, that i dont know.

i tried taking up ung nirefer ni skwayred na link. and just for me to know kung ano na ba ang iq ko ngayon or kung meron pa ba?!? the website has the iq test, medyo may passing grade nga lang. hehe parang skul.

opo, tama po yang nababasa nyo hindi ko po inedit sa photoshop yan, nagkataon lang at naswertehan dahil nakapasa ako sa test na un. may passing grade sila na 124 para sa mga taong interesadong sumali sa samahan nila. pero ano ba talga sinusukat ng iq tests na yan ha?

one problem i can see is that the term intelligence can never be defined adequately and so nobody knows what an iq test is supposed to measure. although it cud possibly test ur reading skills on how to perceive directions, your color and number sequence, the mathematical abilities and general knowledge, but how accurate it is? baket sa dinami dami ng iq tests, why its all not the same? why there are discrepancies?

sabe nga nila that measures of intelligence may be valuable — although the value is often overrated — but much harm can be done by persons who try to classify individuals strictly on the basis of such measures alone. no one should be either alarmed or discouraged if he finds that his IQ is not as high as he might have hoped.

as for me, im doing it for fun, the fact that theres a score na dapat ipasa is challenging enuf for me. however diko naman masyadong dinidibdib ang pagkakaroon ng score sa iq, lots of ppl have better scores than mine, and thats how it is. tska baka sumaket ang ulo ko kung pano iinterpret ang iq. alam nyo naman na ang brains parang tyan yan...sumasaket kapag walang laman. (chuckles)

siguro nagtataka kung baket binago ko na naman ang turf ng bahay kong to, actually nadisgrasya nga eh. nung time na bumalik ako sa work after ng ilang araw kong di pagpasok, nagtaka ako at halos ang page ko ay diko makilala. nawala na kase ung path ng pictures from the servers. (grr walang paalam sa pagbura) well ok lang naman kase nakikilibre ako ng upload sa isa pang site hehe. pero pero pero...wala lang, syempre parang nagsimula na naman ulit ako ng coding, kaya i come up with this temporary background.

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holy thursday daw ngayon, pinipilit kong kumbinsihin na its holy day (not holiday ha), kaya sige lang pa goody good muna ako, hindi ko binuwisit ang mga kapatid ko pagkagising ko, tinirhan ko sila ng pagkain sa mesa. tapos i got a nose bleed, di naman tumagas ang dugo but i notice it nung nagsimula akong linisin ang nose ko. (ang pinagandang term para sa salitang mangulangot) so thats when i found out na its bleeding. di naman ako naghihiyaw at nagsabeng "oh my god, am i gonna die soon?".....mahirap na baka kase may sumagot ng OO.

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papasok ako sa office, heto at sandamakmak ang tao sa antipolo, anak ng pating di ko malaman kung san sila nanggaling. ang dami talaga, parang may concert, parang may parada ng kung sinong sikat, parang may riot at parang dumami rin ang mga negosyante na nagbebenta ng sopdrinks at sa malamig. isa rin sila sa nagcause ng traffice sa kalsada. obserbasyon ko, karamihan though diko man nilalahat, sa tingen ko di nila alam why they are doing such a thing. siguro para sa knila ang paglalakad ng pagkalayo layo is a form of sacrifice. at kelangan daw nilang mag sakripisyo dahil mahal na araw? huwat?? koneksyon?! ung iba ang iingay, ung iba naman sa sobrang pagod kung san san na lang nauupo, at ung iba napasama lang dahil nandun si "crush". para saken, mas maraming bagay ang dapat pag tuunan ng pansin, and walking a thousand miles will not make u a saint. siguro deboto ka sa ginagawa mong yan, pero diba dapat deboto ka sa dun sa taga taas? ah ewan basta ang alam ko, never akong nakaranas ng alay lakad..for obyus reason na taga dito na kase ako.

its been like about a week since the last time i put something here. i was on bed for about 5 days suffering from this sore throat. and now im back to work, barking and barking my heart here...letting them hear me, advertising how unwell experiencing this. i still got lots of things to do, starting off with the complaint emails sent to me for being unavailable for 3 days.

for the first time after awhile, i wished that i will not be working this lenten week, why? well i gotta need some rest. and uhm rest again...and maybe trying to contemplate on things. for i know that ive been out on where i shud be.

mahal na araw na naman. ano ba ang magiging sakripisyo ko para sa linggong ito? ano ba ang gagawin ko, magbabakasyon, di kakain ng baboy or manonood ng mga movies sa bahay? sa tingen ko, dina applicable ang bakasyon kase heto't kakapasok ko pa lang, manood ng movies hmm pwede, di kakain ng baboy pwede rin bilang sakripisyo. nakakatawa mang isipin pero sa lahat ng nabanggit in which karamihan sa aten ay yan ang naiisip, wala man lang something spiritual. opps di nga pala ako sadyang spiritual na tao pero para saan ba talaga ang lenten?

kanina nabalita na sa probinsyang x, nagsisimula na ang mga parokyano ng kanilang so-called sacrifice, at ito ay ang paghampas ng mga matatalim na bagay sa kanilang likod or pagpapapako sa krus. grabe sa trippings, diko masakyan na meron pa palang mga taong deboto na taon-taon ginagawa to. minsan gusto kong isipin na nakanayan nila kaya nila ginagawa or siguro para sa kanila maiibsan ang paghihirap ni kristo kapag ginaya nila ang sakripisyong yun. pero ano ba talaga ang mahal na araw? ito ba ay para sa mga katoliko lamang?

right now, i dont have voice due to this cough and whoever im talking to, feeling ko di ako naririnig. i hate this cough. but i guess, in this lenten season, whatever were planning to do, whatever we believe in, lets all not forget these days, to remember Him. with him, all our voices are gonna be heard. 

last saturday, sesh and i were thinking of some place to eat. we pass by Cibo (pronounced chee-bo, means food in Italian). a cool and vibrant atmosphere is accentuated with expressive art in the form of new-age restau design and a hand-blown glass of iced tea. we actually had a hard time ordering which one to have as the orders are in itallian name dishes, the description help us a little to choose what to eat. i miss eating italian fud, so we had the white sauce pasta and the oval pizza, which obviously di namen naubos...opps sorry di na oval ung pizza when we took this pic, hehe.

if you notice na parang may mga small cars sa top left, yeah were in the window view, lilinawin ko lang na di sya part ng ingredients or di sya matchbox na design sa plate, heheh. twas a long day for us, kwentuhan na nag umpisa sa kinder years till college. wahehe, epekto ata ng pizza kumbaket dipa kame antok nun.

its been like a year or maybe months that i have not been connected with old folks. time constraints, maybe distance or just simply out of touch. its amazing though to see how well they are doing...and fascinating to see how happy they become...how years added to their lives turned out to be so meaningful.

what a classic example that life is beautiful in its finest. how a happy mom is celebrating each day to have a great blessing....and appreciating how this gift brings joy to everyone.

seeing the perky smiles transpired how befitting having your own seed, your own blood, your own heart. a seed in which every woman wanted to have with, a heaven-sent.