one DAPSILOG please!!!

alrighty, as i may have insenuated before that i would be having a vacation, for how long? that im not sure of. if sisipagin ako, then ill be back again on the limelight haha. so just in case u wanna know what happened to me, ive been out for quite some time. ive realized that there are indeed better opportunities out there, kelangan lang ng out-of-the-box thoughts to make a difference on my daily routine. thank god my family is supporting me all the way out. ang lagay eh, magdesisyon ako mag-isa, knowing that they are the ones who will be affected. i dont have any plans right now. (rolling eyes) oopps in case i have, im not gonna say it to everybody para surprise hehe.

hindi talaga nawala ung quote ko na if u win some, u lose some. its pretty obvious what im bout to lose...but its also getting better on wat is in store for me, for us..uyy na curious ka ano? no way, saka mo na malalaman, baka maunsyami eh.

so lately, nagsenti ako, naisip ko na while i still have my eyes and hands to use pc, why dont i create something. so i come up with this pic. i kinda like it kase the faces of the ppl who have been important to me, who influenced me and ung mga naniwala sa mga pambobola ko hehhe. actually kulang pa ung pics, so in case ure not included, it only means i dont have ur pic, so wag kang magtampo :P pili na mga suki, murang mura lang!

im currently here in the office hanging around, though ive got nothing to do. were done with the current account and we are still waiting for the pending applications. that is if i have one. oh yeah i do have one, wherein im scheduled for interview 6am manila time. i was able to attend it finally, i didnt have a change of mind of not going cuz im interested in that account. hope things are going to be fine. i also have another schedule to attend to but i refused it, im just that lazy going out. sometimes i feel good being a bummer, while most of the time, i get bored. i guess im ready for a new one.

im also done with the apprentice season. i finished it in less that 2 days only. it is a continuation of my movie marathon last week. what do u expect, i got nothing to do. (told u!) of all the apprentice seasons, its only the last apprentice season that ive seen ivana marie (aka ivanka) and donald trump jr, the children of the famous donald trump. the 24-year-old former model, now vice president of real estate development at the Trump Organization, will join her father and first-season winner Bill Rancic to decide which “Apprentice” wannabe will be fired. she is to appear in five episodes of the popular reality show’s fifth cycle, filling in when judge Carolyn Kepcher is out of town.

In case u dont know her...... 

Birth Name: Ivanka Trump
Date of Birth: October 30, 1981 
Sex/Type: Female
Profession: Model

Biography:
Daughter of Donald and Ivana Trump, Ivanka is one of the fashion industry's latest sensations. She started modelling at 16 years of age while in school and is now represented by Elite Model Management. Her first cover was a 1997 issue of Seventeen and she hosted the Miss Teen USA Pageant that same year. 
Quote:
"I make money because I have to pay for everything apart from my [Choate] school fees. My mother even makes me pay my own telephone bill."

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earlier, sesh, blissy and i went out had breakfast and just stroll around the mall after the interview. and as usual had the little chitchats and decided to try do bowling. none of us are really playing it but just for fun, we tried it. ohh yeah just dont ask me how many times i missed the pins. (yeah right hehe) twas fun but my fingers are swelling cuz im really not used in holding such a heavy bowling ball and glide it on the floor, i always slide it on the left side, sabe ko na eh left handed nga ako heheh. whew, can we just play basketball next time? :P

kung maaalala pa ninyo, na si peter pan ay ang main character na ka partner ni wendy at ang mortal na kalaban ni dr. hook. the reason im telling u about this is that peter pan is someone who does not want to grow old, that is why he never gets old, according to the fairytale.

ilang taon pa ang daraan at malapit na ring mawala ang age ko sa kalendaryo. dont get me wrong that im bothered by that, kase sa edad kong to..im not. para sa iba ang ugali kong walang pakealam sa aspetong un ay palatandaan na meron daw ako sigurong peter pan syndrome. it is a phase where childishness is taking over. some would call it psychological neoteny. the Peter-Pan psychological type is one characterized by immaturity or certain sorts of psychological, social, and sexual problems.

the fact that we are refusing kung ano ba talaga ang dapat na mangyari sa buhay naten in accordance to our maturity level can be classified as this one. ung tipong, matanda ka na, umaasa ka pa rin sa magulang mo eh kaya mo namang magtrabaho. ung bang tatanungin ka baket ang hilig mong magsuot ng sneakers or maglaro ng mga pc games at ung bang ma classify ka as "freak" for not planning ahead if ull get married in time or not. if na experience mo nang masabihan na "para kang bata" or that "ure so immature" or that u need to "grow up", congratulations isa kang kandidato sa pagkakaroon ng peter pan syndrome.

ang mga senyales na to, though i havent heard anything from the others, ay parang nakikinita ko na sa sarili ko. minsan kase dumarating sa pakiramdam na mas mabuti pa ang bata carefree, less hassle wlang masyadong responsibility. sometimes if we are soaked in a situation where we feel helpless, dito lumalabas ang syndrome na to, na we wish to be young, who never grows old para naman matigil na ang pagharap naten sa realidad. pero talaga nga bang meron ako nito?

as for me, the childlike activities like animes, wrestling or even games will not contain u and stop u from being an adult. bawat tao ay dumadaan sa stage until ma reach nya ung level of adulthood. ito ung phase kung saan, ang isa ay marunong magdesisyon, magadjust sa environment at may matatawag na character. ang pag give up pala sa mga bagay na un will not make u an adult either. the decision to think, behave and act like an adult and continuously working on it is the vital role of a real adult.

kunsabagay ano bang alam ng ibang tao sa responsibilidad ko sa pamilya ko at kung gaano ko siniseryoso ang mga bgay na dapat pagtuunan ng sapat na atensyon? wala. ang nakikita lang nila ay ang mga maliliit na bagay which they thought is important on how they are going to define me. if being carefree for other ppl is a sign of immaturity, i dont think that altruism is a sign of maturity as well.

siguro nga at some point meron talagang ibang tao na ayaw tumanda, ayaw magkaroon ng responsibilidad kaya di na lang mag aasawa. ayaw matuto ng mga bagong bagay dahil para sa kanila, the more they learn, the more things become complex. kung nararanasan mo ang mga bagay na to, wag kang magngangawa at may pag asa pa. sabe nga nila eh "FOCUS" kung ano ba talaga ang priorities mo. kung di mo alam, ask for other's assistance or list down ung mga importanteng bagay para sayo, maliit man or malake. pag ayaw pa din, yan pwede ka ng umiyak hehe loko lang. siguro wala talagang tamang formula sa bagay na to, ika nga nila GROWING OLD IS MANDATORY BUT GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL.

ikaw, san ka nabibilang?

hindi naman bago saten ang kulturang koreano ng pausuhin ang endless love 1,2 and 3. endless nga. nariyan din ang kanta bear song nila rain and jenny sa series na fullhouse, ops wag mo ng ideny na kabisado mo ang choreography nun, ako man sinasabayan ko din un. kaya naman ang bangis nito sa mga pinoy ay umabot na sa mga korean movies na pinapalabas din dito sa aten.

i had a chance to watch my tutor friend kung saan bida si cholo (uy natatandaan mo pa ha) at ung leading lady sa stained glass.

 and the second movie is my girl and i, leading lady si jenny ng full house.

oh di ba, para na rin akong nasa korea hehe. enjoy naman tong mga movies, khit papano nakakalibang.

since im out for a b-leave last week, i had to go out with my gals this week. its not that im obliged to treat them out but just have a thought that this cud be my last bday with them. ehem, dont scream i aint gonna die yet. at first im a little bothered cuz im expecting that it shud be a nice treat for them, however i felt pressured when another buddy is late for the appointment, and we heard comment from another buddy the things that we ought not to know. my point is, can we just set aside our differences or personality clash and look forward for the dinner. anyways we are able to pull it off towards the end of the night. so we basically dine in superbowl. yes i know na naman! twas friday night and expect that other restau choices is not going to be that available. so we end up eating again on this place in greenhills. after that we again went to timezone and ktv. twas only the three of us then since the two buddies headed back to the office.

this is taken inside the ktv room. we had fun, bitin nga lang sa oras. we decided to stay in their apartment and do movie marathon again. sa lagay kong to, my eyes are tired, i wish i can still keep up with the movies.

OT: wahh, no one misses me today, wala pa ring nag tetext saken. diko malaman if fault ng cellphone or what hehe.

makulimlim ang panahon, masarap ang byahe, malamig ang hangin. ito ang typical na ginagawa ni jason sa araw-araw na pagpasok sa unibersidad. nakita nya na ang building sa kursong architecture, senyales na malapit na syang bumaba sa jeep. naisipan nyang mag text sa sandaling yun at kinapa ang bulsa ng bag..wala, kinapa ang bulsa ng pantalon..wala rin. nabulabog ang paghahanap nyang un ng marinig ang tinig ng katabing aktong bababa ng jeep. inulit nyang muli ang pagkapa sa kanyang gamit, pero wala talaga. simpleng tao lang naman si jason kaya di naman mamahalin ang cellphone subalit mahalaga to sa kanya. sa di mawaring kadahilanan, kinutuban sya noon habang tinitingnan ang lalakeng bagong baba. isang desisyon ang nabuo. dali dali syang pumara at tuluyan ng bumaba. minasdan ang lalakeng nakasuot ng polong puti na may hawak ng black pouch, na kaedad siguro ng kanyang ama, ay kasalukuyang humihitit ng yosi. saktong napatingen sa kanya ang lalake, tinapon nun ang yosi at mukhang lalakad ng palayo  sa direksyon na kinatatayuan ni jason. dun sya kinabahan at di nagdalawang isip na lapitan ang kahina hinalang lalake. walang kagatol gatol nyang tinanong:

jason: asan na ho ang cellphone ko?
lalake: huh? wala saken cellphone mo. (sabay talikod sa kanya)
jason: alam kong kinuha nyo kaya bago pa ako mageskandalo ilabas no na ho.
lalake: hoy wala akong kinukuha sayo.

ang kantong un kung saan napapalibutan ng mga estudyanteng kumain sa kantina at mga ilang sibilyan nag nakasaksi sa pag uusap nila. nilapitan sila ng ilan upang alamin ang pangyayari.

ale: boy ano ba nangyari?
jason: nawawala ho kase ung cellphone ko, knina lang asa bulsa ko, tapos kinutuban ako ng kinuha nya pero ayaw umamin. (sabay turo sa lalakeng kaharap)
lalake: hindi nga ako ang kumuha, bat ba ang kulit mo.

mabilis ang pagdagsa ng mga umuusyoso. sari saring kuro-kuro ang sinasabe.

sibilyan: bat di na lang kapkapan para mapatunayan.
lalake: ho? baket naman eh....

hindi pa tapos ang kanyang sasabihin biglang may humila sa kanyang braso para di makapalag. sinamantala ni jason ang pagkkataong kapain ang bulsa ng lalake. tiningnan sa harap at likod na bulsa ng pantalon, wala. nawawalan na ng pag asa si jason nang makita nya ang pouch, nagpumiglas ang lalake at nagsasabeng "wag yan." lumakas ang pakiramdam ni jason na meron syang makikita sa bag na un. hindi nagkamali si jason, nakita nya mismo ang nakapatay ng nokia 3310 na cellphone. sabay na rin sa pagbitaw ng sibilyan sa braso ng lalake. sambit ni jason sa isipan....

jason: eto na nga ang cellphone ko na kinuha mo.

mabilis ang reaction ng lalake, dinampot ang cellphone na nasa palad ni jason, hinawi ang lupon ng mga tao at nagttakbo. nagsidhi ang galit ng mga sibilyan at estudyanteng nakausyoso. hinabol nila ang lalake, dumampot sila ng bato upang tugisin ang magnanakaw.

sibilyan: putanginang magnanakaw ka!

sabay sa pagbato na ikinatama sa sentido ng lalakeng natumba. tinungo ni jason ang eksena at kinuha ang kanyang cellphone na nilagay sa bulsa at pauwi na ng bahay. hindi na sya papasok sa araw na to. ikukuwento nya sa bahay ang nangyari.

habang pauwi na sya, naisip nyang mahirap na talaga ang buhay ngayon. ultimo ang hinde mamahaling cellphone tulad ng sa kanya ay pinag iinteresan. mabuti na lamang at may mga tumulong sa kanya.

natunton nya na ang gate ng kanilang bahay, bumungad sa kanya ang ina na parang di nasorpresa na maaga syang nakabalik.

ina: nakita mo na?
jason? ho? diko kayo maintindihan. nawalan nga ako ng cellphone kanina eh, heto ngat nabawi ko. (sabay labas sa bulsa)
ina: kanino yan? eh kanina pa andito ang cellphone mo. naiwan mo bago ka pumasok sa eskwelahan. (sabay turo sa cabinet na pinagpatungan ng naiwang gamit)

namanhid ang buong katawan ni jason habang naaalala ang engkwentro sa pobreng lalake.

sabe nila sadyang manginginom ang mga pinoy. honga eh, pansin ko pag gusto ng hapi bonding o kaya may kabagang kang may problema, o kaya naman talagang nanunuyo lang ang lalamunan. anot ano pa man ang reason sa pagtotomaan eh dapat may guidelines tayo diba, kaya eto daw un:

- sa pag-inom, diretso sa sikmura, wag sa utak. wag maging malibog kung nakainom. alam nyo na ibig sabihin nito.

- bawal ang makulit. siguro pwede na ung paminsang minsang pagdaldal, pagbangka sa usapan. pero naman wag mo ng pagpilitang ang dapat na maging presidente ng pilipinas ay si erap pa rin.

- bawal ang manaket ng kapwa. ibig sabihin, wag kang basagulero, ke asawa, kaibigan lalo na sa mga anak mo.

- bawal ang pag-inom kung kinupit mo lang ang pangtoma. well maliban na lang kung libre to ng katsokaran mo. mag contribute ka naman, khit sa pulutan.

- bawal ang madrama. eto ung mga tanggerong, walang katapusan ang pagngawa at pagsuka. ung tipong di na maawat.

- bawal ang kung ano mang bagay tulad ng baril at matutulis na bagay. ang siste kase, annhin mo tong mga to?

- drink moderately, para namn di ka gagapang pauwi. anumang bagay na sobra ay nakakasama. kamag anak to ng dont drink and drive.

yan folks, siguro enough na yan. mapa babae or lalake, walang masama sa paminsang minsang pag inom. tagay lang bro.

last week, too many things happen, including not putting any blog entry hehe. well at least now i have time. Ü for those who wanna know what happen to me, im still alive and kicking, nothing really much except for the days leave, out of the office yet no place to go, hehe nag uulan din kase so im lazy going out.

monday. u can call me stupid or what, but i lost my wallet. all i can remember is that i put it on my pedestal, twas only when i went to the washroom the time i left my station. ohh well at least now i shud be more aware, more careful of my valuables especially in a place wherein supposedly educated ppl are around. whatever. its just a material thing i know, if theres one thing i felt sorry about is that i shud have contributed the money to an institution, at least for a good cause, u know what i mean. but unfortunately that is not the case.

at home, im hooked into movies. felt as if its a movie marathon, hehhe i watched the nun, the american haunting, click and scary movie 4. pambawi lang to sa mga araw na di ako nakapanood ng movies. i plan to watch superman cuz im mesmerized how hot brandon is. (come on, you're looking at his undies right now hehe) when im done with the new movies, i scanned for the old ones. (ayaw ng mommy na inuulit ko ung palabas bwahah) i grab I AM SAM, starring sean penn and michelle pfieffer, wherein sam (sean p) plays a retarded role. nakakatouch kase ung movie so i somehow like it, showing how a retard person see simplicity in life and how they behave better compared to the normal ones. (far far better huh).

i received a frank olivier perfume from my auntie as a gift and its only now that i remember how the givenchy for women scent is, cuz the previous ive got is basically the limited edition. also i received a greetings from someone whom i did not expect to greet me on my birthday, that call made me smile in a way, that somehow things are getting better.