one DAPSILOG please!!!

one horny friday night, with my boyfriend...

eugene: ohhh sweetie, want me to go faster?
mimi: yes, yes! oh ure so fucking good!!!
eugene: uhm-uhm (pumping it so fast and giving me that thrust i never had before)
mimi: ohh baby!!!! yes! yes! yes! (movement at the double)
eugene: uhm-uhm-uhm! u like this baby?! uhm-uhm-uhm~!
mimi: yeahhhh....dont stop! ahhhh

he's such an expert on how to excite my body. his fondle drives me crazy. one thing is running in my head as we approach orgasm...all i think of is his pretty face, everything else is shadowy.

boss: have u lost ur charm? why is the deal with mr. santos not done yet?
mimi: sir, we are still negotiating with the terms. besides, if we could have offered the 15% rebates, he would have signed the proposal. we are aiming to get the 60% income out of this project and we cannot rush them.
boss: stop bullshitting me!!! get this thing settled at the end of the month. if u need to do some drastic actions just to get him sign all of these, u may do so...

i no longer hear any succeeding words he says, something is running in my mind...and i almost wished for him to vanish. a time without a pain in my neck.

i went on eugene's condo to surprise him...

eugene: so baby, what is it? (i saw a smirk on his face)
mimi: guess what babe...im delayed and i had my pregnancy test and it says positive.

i saw a bewildered face and he is now disoriented.

mimi: why babe, whats wrong?
eugene: are u kidding me!? aren't u taking ur pills?
mimi: are u mad at me?
eugene: dont u get it? what are we going to do now?! i mean this is fucking crazy, im not yet ready!!!
mimi: arent u happy we'll be parents soon? we will have this baby...right?!
eugene: yeah..but not this soon. babe, lets fix this stuff, i dont want this kind of mess. my parents must not know that im screwed!!!

hearing him said that, my ears get numb. i felt that ive fallen inlove with an asshole. a devil who wanted to take this life out of my tummy. my tears kept falling down on my cheeks.

at the dining table....

dad: dont ever let that jerk step into my house! now he is not going to be responsible!? and who do u expect to take care of u..me?!? i cannot provide enough for this family and now ure adding that little bastard?! u see, ure beginning to be like ur mom, that bitch who left us for another man!! i dont wanna see eugene's face if he has no plans of marrying u, else ill smack his face, or better yet...kill him.

i cannot utter a single word, im just waiting till his anger subsides. there's much to be said for this pregnancy...but it is painfully hurtful...if only i can stop him...for i fear that the scion in me will hear it.

now ive got no one to run to, i dont know what to feel bout myself. i have lost a fighter in me. im like continuing a lost battle. i thought i had given enough love to the ppl around me, and i expected the same kind of love...but found none...

im afraid of getting another blackout and i dont wanna surprise myself on what to come next...on what more to happen...

huh?! i can feel it...i cannot prevent it from happening again. this is scaring me! i want to run away from it..oh no, its here again...please help!!!!!


NEWS: a pregnant woman found dead near the matiwasay river. doctors tried saving the 2 month-old baby, but to no avail.