one DAPSILOG please!!!

I got you covered...WFT! no one's covering for me. i dont need it, cuz im not hiding from anybody. i hate your statement, i hate your guts, and what i really hate about you is whenever you proclaim yourself to be the only brainy person here. i call it smart-ass.

I got you covered ka dyan! mukha mo!

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kapag naiisip kong ang pagcocommute sa fx na supposedly ay airconditioned, and everyone is expected to feel comfortable, gusto kong magtayo ng union at magreklamo. kung gagayahin ko ang mmda sa panghihimasok sa batas trapiko, abah makakagawa na pala ako ng Do's and Dont's pagdating sa pagsakay sa FX.

- u know ur body type. small, medium, large ang sizes..wag ka ng tumawad na may semi-medium o semi-large. if ure big enough para maupo sa middle seat, wag ka ng sumiksik pa. tapos titingnan mo nang masama yung kaawa awa mong katabi na namimilipit sa pag ipit ng kanyang mga binti, magkasya ka lamang. come on, give them a break.

- speaking of middleseat, siguro dito lang sa pinas yung ginagawang "apatan" yun, ok fine, apat na kung apat, pero naman wag kang uupo na para kang nakaupo sa sala, kung ayaw mong mapaaway. again, if u think that somthing between ur legs ay maiipit, u might as well take the back seat. dont be slouchy.

- kung inaantok ka, magpasensya ka. wag mong hihigaan ung katabi mo, dahil hindi un kasama sa bayad. please, dont forget maligo nakakahiya sa katabi mo.

yan muna for now, sige chao!

im again back to the world full of complexities. i am not enjoying work anymore, it is becoming a pain in my ass. i am hopeful i can manage my time more. it felt like ive added 10 years to my actual age. darn.

across the street is a not-so-old-lady, probably at around 50 na, madungis, wlang kilala sa paligid, nagsasalita sa kanyang sarili and crazy thoughts come into my mind. will i be like her when i reach her age?  what if she used to blog before and make soliloquiy as a form of expression and not a disturbance? what if she is a mom who used to take care of her kids, beaten up by her lazy man? what if she had experienced being rejected, manipulated and physically abused by the drunkards on the street? where are those people who promise to take care of her when she is old?

i am now afraid reaching 50 after that contemplation. matagal pa bago ko ma reach ung age na un and that scares me more as i might experienced worst than that. naisip ko tuloy what is that lady thinking? she has her own world where she can be truly happy even for a moment? is losing her mind a better option than her commiting suicide? no one knows.

i remember an incident that happened recently while i was at the corner of the street waiting for a ride going to work. i was close to the spot when i heard someone talking asking San ka?! he happens to ride a motorcycle, slow enough for me to see his face, even stop a bit and see him looking at me. i dont know him so i simply look away from him. a mom together with her 9-year old kid, seems talking to that bastard and asked me.

Lady: miss, kakilala mo ba yun? tinatanong ka kung saan ka daw dadaan eh.
Me: hinde ko ho kilala un.
Lady: ah ganun ba, akala ko asawa mo kase kung magtanong akala mo kilalang kilala ka.
Me: kung asawa ko ho yun, hinde ako tatanungin nun dahil alam nya kung saan ako pupunta.

it freaked me out for 5 minutes, wondering if that stranger will go back to that same spot. nagmamadali akong makasakay to get away from that corner. i was thinking how often is he following me? how did he choose people, is that randomly? what is he after a free lift? for what? why he did not ask the mom and the kid if his intention is to just help other ppl?

wtf!?!

id like to think that philippines is still a safe country to live in. id like to believe that in our small town, i wont encounter those type of ppl, but i did, twice already. id like to hope that this thing wont happen again. id like to learn martial arts to protect myself, anyone care to teach me?